4/16/14

we're growing...


^^sweet nicole, who captured yesterday's video, sent me these stills to edit from our film. I love how they turned out:) Thank you sweet friend.

In case you missed yesterday's blog post with a  film announcement... yep, we're expecting again!!!! well, we've been expecting for quite sometime with our adoption, but we are expecting biologically as well:) I'm currently 13 weeks today and officially in the second trimester. Praise the Lord. The first trimester was really rough for me hence why I haven't been blogging very much.

We found out I was pregnant on February 3rd. I was right at 4 or 5 weeks. We were fearful it was yet another miscarriage due to some similar signs I had with my miscarriage in November. I begged the Lord not to let that happen again, and He graciously answered. We immediately told family so they could pray. For the first several weeks, I had multiple ultrasounds and my blood was taken too many times. The ultrasounds showed nothing, but my levels kept rising. Finally at 8 weeks, we heard a faint heart beat and saw the tiniest, sweetest little body. We decided then to keep it as under wraps as possible, until I was clear of the first trimester, but of course a few close friends figured it out and asked us pretty quickly in March.  We had our most recent appointment on Monday & the heart beat was going strong.

We could not be more excited about this pregnancy. It was quite a bit of shock to us in the beginning, but clearly the Lord knew we needed this child in our family in His perfect timing. We will stay active with our adoption agency until I hit 20 weeks (meaning a birth mom could choose us and view our profile before then... also meaning we could go from 1 to 3 children in one year.. CRAZY!). If we are not chosen by the time I hit 20 weeks, then our account will be frozen and will be reactivated when this child I'm pregnant with hits 6 months. The money donated by all of you gracious, lovely people during our fundraiser has either already been given to our agency and those funds will also be frozen until we are reactivated, or it was put into a separate savings account that we are NOT touching until needed for our adoption. We feel very strongly that the money donated will remain there until time to use for adoption. We just wanted all of those who donated to know that the money will still, in fact, be used for our adoption ONLY.  promise. promise. promise.

With all that being said, we are thankful the Lord is adding to our family as He sees fit. I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little sad that our adoption may have to be put on hold. That child has been growing in our hearts for the past year now and the idea of having to wait even longer until we meet him kills me sometimes. I'm asking the Lord if it's His will to let us be chosen before our account is frozen. I know that means things would be crazy around here with three children under the age of 2, but I accept that craziness because it would be His will. I'd love for you to pray that with us. Should 20 weeks come and we haven't been chosen, you better believe we will be sooooo ready come next April for us to be reactivated!

It seems like October 22nd is light years away. C was born October 3rd, so he will just have turned two when this little nugget arrives. Gosh, we are having another baby. It still seems new. We are praising the Lord for this sweet blessing. We obviously couldn't be more excited!!! If you've read this blog for any amount of time, you know that to us children are the greatest blessing.

Thank you for all the sweet comments yesterday. We are so thankful for the love our families and friends and you have shown us!

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I do want to mention that if you are a lady reading today who is struggling to become pregnant or waiting on adoption, I am praying for you today. I have met many women through blogging and social media because of my miscarriage and adoption journey who have unfortunately struggled with infertility or are waiting the long wait with adoption. My heart goes out to you today. I'm asking the Lord to open your womb, to hear your cries and prayers, to bring your child home to you, to let you see that positive line, to hear that little heart beat, to receive the call you've been chosen, and most importantly to grant you peace and rest until that time comes. We serve a mighty, gracious God.

11 comments:

Kate Kubler said...

Chills reading this! So happy for you. So so so happy.

Kate Kubler said...

Congrats!!! How exciting! Children really are a blessing :)

Kate Kubler said...

So exciting!!! Praying for hall's sweet growing family!

Kate Kubler said...

Congratulations to you and your family! How exciting!

Kate Kubler said...

Congratulations, I am so happy for you and your sweet family :) I have followed your blog and your journey for a while now and I keep you in my prayers constantly. I do have one question regarding your adoption - when you speak of the sweet little babe that you'll one day bring into your family, you refer to it as him/he - are you only wanting to adopt a boy? Or do you not mind what gender the baby is? I'd be interested to know why you always refer to the baby as a boy.

Kate Kubler said...

At this time, we feel The Lord is leading us to adopt a boy for several different reasons , one being we already have a boy. So a boy would be our preference. It was something we prayed about in depth and felt confirmation from The Lord. However. Should we be approached about a girl, we would never turn down a child because of gender.

Kate Kubler said...

Congratulations to you and your family!! SO exciting! Keeping you all in my prayers!

Kate Kubler said...

Definitely praying for you and your family. God's timing is always perfect! Congrats to you all.

Kate Kubler said...

Congratulations! Your constant faith and trust in The Lord is wonderful, blessings to your beautiful growing family!

Kate Kubler said...

i'm seriously thrilled for you!! praying for you and for gods perfect timing in your adoption/pregnancy! i can understand the feelings of being sad if your adoption gets put on hold so i'll be praying for your heart! and sister, your encouragement at the end seriously has me near the ugly cry. thank you for that.

Kate Kubler said...

Congratulations! I found your blog through Wynne. I found out I was pregnant around the time you did but miscarried a couple of days later. Our due date was Oct 21. Thank you for your prayers and encouragement. I totally needed to hear that today. Looking forward to following your blog!